Graham D Brown | Author and Speaker

Jul/09

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Impostor in my head

(Based on Matthieu Ricard’s “Happiness”)

There is an impostor in my head. I believe it’s the core of my self, my entity. It gives me labels - I am English, I am an entrepreneur, I am a father etc.

This self-importance navigates my stream of consciousness - a boat that attracts attention and self-importance. It feeds on the next moment, future fantasies and past reminiscences.

I fear that without the boat, without these goals I cannot achieve yet these thoughts are the work of the impostor, giving me labels and signposts that dictate shortcuts on how my life should be - other people’s agendas.

Imagine drifting downstream in the boat and you suddenly are awoken by crashing into another boat. Insensed, you rise to give both barrels to the clumsy navigator who just rammed your boat. Only, you don’t - you find the other boat empty so you laugh at the stupidity. Now imagine the same scenario but with the other boat occupied - your reaction will be different. Your reaction is different because of the self-construct of “I”. Our suffering in form of the negative energies and anger too were self-inflicted.

Without clinging to the boat, when the stream has object we have freedom.

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